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What do you like the most? Where do you find solace? Do you actually know what you really want and where are you heading right now at this point of time..in your life? I often ask myself these questions and if I don't get any answers...then I come to know for sure..my conscience has become shrouded once again...

I feel uuhhh!!! how I crave for the purity of the heart and mind...I wish I could see the light coming out of my heart.. leading me to the right way.Well...we all have the guiding light inside us...and it tells us everything we want to know. Then I start introspecting things...and I find myself thinking about times I denied my soul and conscience on small and big matters...It's is just like realizing that you are just running but don't know where or why....I often get engaged in monologues...but I would prefer it to call 'A dialogue with my soul'.

So many times...it dawns upon me...what we are seeing is not a real picture...as if we are just pieces of a big big game...we go on about life as it is and let it be like this only...because it is too much too comprehend every thing that comes across...
But I don't like this very idea of god's play...So I ask myself my purpose...but I don't get any answer except for the intuition that the way will be revealed only at the right time.So I look at my surroundings...and luckily I live in a luxuriant locality with lots and lots of trees...and I can not resist myself ( it happens every time) and lose myself to the humming  trees...a playful sound of wind hiding in and out of  trees...shaking them up and  swirling around them....and then beyond that a blue vast sky absorbs my attention....Oh I tell you...It is much easier to immerse yourself  into the beautiful vast sky and it's ever changing colors and to forget about everything else...than to find a way out of the problems which mostly exist in our own minds only.
All the questions get wiped out of my mind...nothing else remains....such a simple series of actions...and such blissful moments as a result...I just can't help but smile...anybody would...firstly because I feel so light...and secondly because I realize that God has given us all the problems we don't even understand but such beautiful measures to release ourselves from the clutches of never ending glitches...He is very chaalu.....

So I like everything starting from a flower... to a bird.. to trees.. to sky...All of it...

And  by all means I pray and pray...to God to give me a lil' more wisdom and courage so that I can at least comprehend the order of my own life and can take charge of it.

Life is beautiful but then beauty lies in the eyes of beholder....So I just want to have those kind of eyes... and heart as well.

My very first attempt...

Greetings to all...

Including my ownself. While writing this blog I am congratulating myself...to have come this far..I've finally made up my mind and ready to share something..or it may be anything with all..who might come across...

Well one of the reasons..of the delay in translating my wish into action is that..there are too many things to say and nothing at all at the same time. I mean this is a way to express oneself...but then why do we seek somebody ...anybody randomly to share things with.

There are too many curosities and too many questions..I am seeking an answer in myself by expressing what I feel about things....

Here I go.....